Im kinda sleepy. I should go to bed soon
Im so sad
I hate leaving him
i hate it
and i dont know if i can take much more of this
its tearing me apart
ive had to say goodbye to him so many times... it never gets easier
A flash of steel and the blade is pressing against my skin, it looks so delicate in the dim light.
So easy to slice through.
Ive been here before so many times.
I dont want to hurt myself
I need to
I have to
I throw the knife and it clatteres against the wall.
I curl up in a ball and I cry as emotions and pain crash through me in waves.
yeah im the strong one
but is it worth it