It is 9:32 am where I am right now, and I was awoken by a call from my mother on my phone, which resulted in and argument wich im pretty sure woke my flatmate up and possibly
And then she wonders why I dont call her so much.
This next part might be triggering, I dont know I havent written it yet, but Im gonna talk about b/p so be warned.
Just in case.
Tomorow is my first Weigh in and im sort of excited but mostly not as I binged BIG time on pizza yesterday (another reason for my mini breakdown when i lost the post/rant I was writing)
I tried to purge but got very little up. Ok I lie I didnt just binge in pizza. I bonged on a Whole Babacue Pizza, Garlic bread and Chocolate Pudding.
I got about half out when i purged but i know its not enough. Im expecting a 59 or higher and if ive maintained ill be devestated but not asmuch as ill be if ive gained.... If ive gained i feel like im gonna loose it and freak out and starve myself again.
and maybe again.
Im gonna eat very little today, just enough to keep me awake during a lecture i have to attend and now before the day begins im going work out hard untill im shaking. I can do this! whatever.
I have GOT to loose weight before christmas.