I have gained sooo much weight.
So Much Weight.
Its gonna be like starting over form the begining.
From before the beggining.
Ok, here goes;
Current weight : 59.2 kg/130lbs
Thats right. That is so close to my Highest recorded weight wich is 59.6 kg. Practically the same.
Damn it. It is the same.
I think Im not gonna eat in a week.
SO disgusted by my state.
Im sitting here and theres fat bulging everywhere. I may throw up from sheer disgust. ugh.
This is very not good indeed
I am going to have weekly weigh ins every Tuesday, starting tomorow and going on a diet of Fruit Water and Tea. Small portion of Pasta once a week, small portion of meat once a week (maybe, I might cut meat out all together, but that might be a bit extreme to be considered possible all in one go)
- C.W = 59.2 kg / 130lbs
- Week 1 G.W = 58kg / 127lbs (at least )
- Week 3 G.W= 55kg / 121lbs (at least)
- Week 5 G.W= 53 kg / 116lbs (at least!)
Ok seen like this it seems more possible but seriously.... I dont need to tell you how im feeling right now after seeing that enourmous number on the scale......
Im trying to keep this post on a positive not but its so hard.... I mustnent let myself spiral. I know I have the support of my lovely followers and Im so gratefull that you are all there for me <3
We can do this.