But back to "awful". Last night was a bad night for me, I had nightmares, tossed and turned and lay awake. I got up and wandered about the flat, had a hot shower wich normaly makes me feel drowsy, I read some more of the book im reading, and ended up eating a quater of a bar of chocolate that was in my frigde, that my mother had left....
I drank a few glasses of water purged as much as I could... It exhausted me and by then it was 8 am so I curled back in to my bed and tossed around untill i fell asleep. To be awoken at 9:30. I lay awake in bed for Hours. And hours, and hours. reading or just thinking.
I got up and got on with the progect I was soposed to be doing way in to the afternoon and by then my flatmates boyfriend had arived .He dissapeared at around 10pm but i didnt really think about it untill he got back half an hour later staggering under the weight of SO MUCH chinese food.
Sooooo much.He had bought for everyone and I was basically dragged to the table to be scrutinised while I eat. So i started chewing and chewing and smiling and swallowing, untill the end when i rushed tothe bathroom and purged as fast and as quietly as possible.Then I took two laxies.
I feel terrible.